Someone's fool

The peacefulness of her voice always makes me forget how emotionless she has acted.

The memory of her laughter makes me forget how many times she crushed my heart.

Standing at the pinnacle of hopelessness and receiving a text from her - I need to talk,

brings out the warrior in me, and I am ready to fight all her battles

The sound of my name, when she says it melts my heart, 

how less she has to do to win me.

The sound of her kisses and whispers of her dreams to spend her life with me,

And I don't think even a king could be wealthier than me.

The confessions of her love and I want to live and die in that moment.

How can someone get so much power, that you feel so vulnerable.

How can someone so easily shatter you into pieces and make you feel like Hercules

How can love be so clueless that it doesn't know anything apart from love?

Gone, but not going.

The agony of missing the heart of my soul.
The pleasure of having a comet memory of her.
The satisfaction of keeping my whole heart on her table.

The hurt of watching her walk away.

The stabs felt when she calls someone else hers.

The joy of knowing she's doing well. 

The pain of realising you fit the bottom in her priorities.

The ignorance my feelings receive.

The not knowing of what would had made her fall for me.

The incompetence of my pure love.

My orphan heart will never know home.

That's how I feel, when I am with you.

There ain't no way the world can see,

the strings between you and me.

Like a long lost person sees a known face,

Like a wandering soul get held in a haste,

Like every lover has blessed me with you,

Like my heart is beating only to be with you,

That's how I feel when I am with you.

My every hesitation, every limitation,

every freaking worldly mannerism diminishes to none.

And to myself too, I become a complete alien.

Who is happy in this new world, that we grew.

Who knows, needs, craves and wants only you.

And baby That's how I feel when I am with you.

My Adorable Darling Has Unique Radiance Inside

On a crossroad, I caught a glimpse of you.
But as our paths were different, had expectations very few
In the winter, again we met.
Like a dawn on a dew, up i was swayed.
The weightlessness of your sight, made me ecstatic and scared
Everything I wanted seemed irrelevant against my need for you.
When we hugged it was like my arms were meant for you.
After a long time I felt something true.
I hope to see many more winters with you.

Postscript.

Every part of my body is on a verge to breakdown,

Every nerve wants me to burst out loud.

Feelings taste like stale bread these days.

Life is waiting to begin but I am in no haste.

There is no point in imagining the puppets dance,

When I hold the strings in my hands.

Unlucky is the person who receives crazy love,

From someone they can’t love back.

Just when I was right about to touch my happiness,

It slipped right out of my hand.

Giving in..

No it’s not going to work.

No it’s not going to work.

I can’t see us tolerating each other anymore.

Yes I promised you forever,

I made you dream moreover,

I gave you hope and I gave you life.

Only if I knew how much of a person I am,
I wouldn't had taken that flight

I wanted to make you happy,
I wanted nothing less than the world for you.

But I am scared of the monsters now, 
I can’t face them anymore

Maybe I am the only reason they grew.

All the promises that you loved when I made, kept me fighting for you,

But you now call them fake.

I can’t be scared and take care of you.

My eyes are still blind how can I show you anything good.

PrIde

My pride is my weapon that kills me and shields me.

In shaky moments it pulls me together,

In embarrassing moments it destroys me.

For the days I have seen, my pride is my need.

Even for the purest of love I cant make it leave.

Is it holding me back or pushing me further?

Is it patting my back or tapping my shoulder?

How can I give up, that I have so dearly nurtured?

To save me from the people and their unreasonable culture.

Its like my mother who raised me quietly.

Love me with it or leave me with it,

But don’t take it away and leaving me with me.