Lonely and Beautiful

My goals, I have made to keep me sane, need my brain to focus.
My heart which is currently in pain is making my entire body ache
Fighting with myself to save myself. 
But really what I want to do is pull my heart out and throw it out of the damn window
Maybe if I bleed through my veins instead of my eyes, the pain would go.

Clarity

I am sure now that, I was created to provide temporary love and support to the poor, scarred by family - girls.
I was not meant to change them or take their pain go away forever but to give them the care for a while, that they missed.
I am sure that I am the dog in their lifes that makes them happy at the end of the day.
I am not owned by someone but I am an exploited by right, care-giver.
I am sure now that I am a fool of love that works day and night for less than free.
I am not what the World sees, I am exactly what I was created to be.